母爱，谁了解？

Just finished reading a friend's blog in which the content is about how much she hates her mother.

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你知道吗?妈咪

有时我真的很讨厌你,因为你重男轻女.

还有.我知道的.你一向来都不疼我.

因为你会打我,你不会忘记的,10月21号

你打了我13下.那时的我,真的很讨厌你.

我想:我为什么会做你女儿.

后来,你告诉我.

别怎样下去,我[mami]心好痛,那你又知道吗?

其实,我也好痛.当你一鞭鞭的打下来,肉搭骨了.全都淤青了

你打,我没闪,是因为我知道我错了.我不该那么大声和你说话

但,你却走进我房间告诉我,

：怎样?开心吧?

想.......你冷血

但 谁知道,常说没关系?

却,永记在心

难道你认为,把所以事弊在心里,会好过?

想和别人诉苦,却怕他们厌烦

我和你说不出心里话,嘴巴大又怎样?

我还是说不出,

你给我快乐,但我更多的不快乐.

我害怕你生气,

你生气像打雷,你微笑像晴天

我爱你微笑胜过你打雷.

就算整个城市颠倒,我还是努力看你微笑

你【妈咪】总比我潇洒.你说不理哦,就是没理

你不爱婆婆妈妈.

但其实慢慢发觉,

时间会停下,

发现你,原来,也有好的一面

我就只有那么懂你,你看.懂的对吗?

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Here's a meaningful comment:

没有一个父母是不爱自己孩子!
他们给的爱比任何人来得还要真实!
比自己爱人还来得真!
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Exactly! I admit that I'm angry sometimes when mommy non stop nagging or even scolds me. I think that I did nothing wrong, but why must she scold me?

well, there must be a reason.

when a person is angry, she's angry.

yea, I dun care what's the reason. I'm just angry!

没有一个父母是不爱自己孩子!
他们给的爱比任何人来得还要真实!
比自己爱人还来得真!

Today, this comment wakes me up.

Recently, she no longer nags me but scolds me a lot. It's like most of the time also she's scolding me..

I met with some health prob. Here pain there pain. Once, which was 2 weeks ago, the doc. said that my blood pressure is too low as i dun have balanced diet. She didn't speak to me for 6 days after finished scolding me. I've counted, 6 days.

I know why. I know. But I was angry as It's non of her business i thought.
Honestly, I hate her at that moment, but deep in my heart, I love her. If not, why did i bother to count how many days?

My anger fade away soon. After that, I tried to do what she asked me to do, eat.... However, still, I got scolded cuz I hate to follow all the time, my fault. I was angry most of the time, bad tempered, not in good mood, especially weekends, when i need to see doc. again. I do know the reason why i gt scolded but i'm just angry~

Today, I realize something.

I'm so wrong.

I'm irrational

Today, I promise to myself, treat myself nicely and recover ASAP so that she no longer worries bout me.

I wanna joke with her as usual

I want her to nag me instead of scolding me

I'm afraid that she'll stop talking to me one day, as i love her so much.

I'm sorry, mommy.

没有一个父母是不爱自己孩子!

当你跌进人生中最深的谷底时该怎么办？
你还爬得起吗？
你有信心吗？
这一切，
只有自己知道。
答案就在心里最深的那一处。

He's away!! Let's Party~

He's away again
And
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Will be BACK tomorrow -.-
ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha *not funny >.O*
what I did today?
should be learning extraction but Cik Mimi postpone it to Wed
So, rather than sitting der growing mushroom....
Sawyi and I 'kepo kepo' a bit when to the lab and asked whether Cik Mimi needs help in doing something
ughh....anything~~~
whatever ~

So, this is what she replied:
Nothing to do, left washing... *giggled*
hmmm....washing huh...
Cik Mimi stood there laughing again -.-
' washing, okay kah ?'
I replied her with a....a....SMILE =)
Finally, sawyi said it's okay as long as there's something for us to do..
Okay, seniors told us that normally IT is quite boring as those lab officers always ask ppl to wash test tubes....ha-ha-ha-ha-ha!!!
Luckily~~ she added on ' have a sit first, I'll ask my boss'

PHEW~~~~~~~~~

Her boss, also known as Cik Hairah din ask us to do washing!
olala~~~
olala~~~
olala~~~
she brought us to the biomedical lab to prepare sampling kit
what's a sampling kit?
owh yea, a filter paper in which a newly borne baby's blood is used to stain it, called dry blood spot
Sawyi and I managed to finish preparing them within 4 hours -.-
she insisted to count how many we did
Thada~~~~~ 415 sampling kits !!!~
Let me repeat again....
415!!!!

Congratulations XD
efficient huh!
hahahahahaha!
we were like working in the packaging department
worked like robots
hehehee =)
Let me show u some photos I took jus now ..

First, you need to stick the double-sided tape onto the small cardboard

Next, you put the filter paper onto the hole at the center
Fold it~

Finally, insert the card into the zipper bag =)
Easy right?
But den the tough part is to open the zipper bag ><
Last but not least, I present you....
my supervisor??
nah~~
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It's just sawyi's serious look, hahaha!

updates

hmmmm....updates?
what I've been up to recently?
nah!~nothing special
semester break?
okay, it's just a week which was not enough as I need to work!!
not the real working life of course...
It's just industrial training (IT), or some call it as internship =S
started my IT last week
in the Doping control center, USM
B-I-O-T-E-C-H-N-O-L-O-G-Y
this is the course I'm pursuing now ><
Dr. Gan and another guy *both oso Leng Zai,hehehehe* worked on a project
'extracting collagen from sheepskin'
also known as agro-waste recycling
I'm glad as I gt the chance to see and touch the real sheepskin imported from australia, LOL!!!
Finally, my supervisor's back on Thurs
I was like, SO HAPPY!!~ *Got something to do oredi lor*
Who knows.....
I dun need to enter the lab as der's nothing to be tested at the moment
I can online as much as I want
I can do this
I can do that
expecting me to be happy ??
ughhh.....worse den what I've expected =(
I learnt nothing

Dr. Adi said: ' I want u to come out with a small project on newborn screening'
me:' owh, challenging! I likeeeeeee it' *monolog*
me:' wait..... u mean anything?'
Dr. Adi:' yes, anything, do some reading on NBS to further understand it'
me: 'Gosh, so random!!' *monolog* now, i hate it -.-
okay, I know nothing...So clever~
SO...SO...SO...
I brought my own laptop to do the so called 'research' on Fri
Facebook, msn, bla bla bla~~
today's the first day of second week
as usual, research =)
I'm happy with my life now but I'm worry at the same time as till now, I learn nothing
what to do? *trying to think optimistically*
Relax first as there's still 10 weeks and 4 days to go ^^V
Gar Yao ah ~~~