母爱，谁了解？

Just finished reading a friend's blog in which the content is about how much she hates her mother.

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你知道吗?妈咪

有时我真的很讨厌你,因为你重男轻女.

还有.我知道的.你一向来都不疼我.

因为你会打我,你不会忘记的,10月21号

你打了我13下.那时的我,真的很讨厌你.

我想:我为什么会做你女儿.

后来,你告诉我.

别怎样下去,我[mami]心好痛,那你又知道吗?

其实,我也好痛.当你一鞭鞭的打下来,肉搭骨了.全都淤青了

你打,我没闪,是因为我知道我错了.我不该那么大声和你说话

但,你却走进我房间告诉我,

：怎样?开心吧?

想.......你冷血

但 谁知道,常说没关系?

却,永记在心

难道你认为,把所以事弊在心里,会好过?

想和别人诉苦,却怕他们厌烦

我和你说不出心里话,嘴巴大又怎样?

我还是说不出,

你给我快乐,但我更多的不快乐.

我害怕你生气,

你生气像打雷,你微笑像晴天

我爱你微笑胜过你打雷.

就算整个城市颠倒,我还是努力看你微笑

你【妈咪】总比我潇洒.你说不理哦,就是没理

你不爱婆婆妈妈.

但其实慢慢发觉,

时间会停下,

发现你,原来,也有好的一面

我就只有那么懂你,你看.懂的对吗?

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Here's a meaningful comment:

没有一个父母是不爱自己孩子!
他们给的爱比任何人来得还要真实!
比自己爱人还来得真!
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Exactly! I admit that I'm angry sometimes when mommy non stop nagging or even scolds me. I think that I did nothing wrong, but why must she scold me?

well, there must be a reason.

when a person is angry, she's angry.

yea, I dun care what's the reason. I'm just angry!

没有一个父母是不爱自己孩子!
他们给的爱比任何人来得还要真实!
比自己爱人还来得真!

Today, this comment wakes me up.

Recently, she no longer nags me but scolds me a lot. It's like most of the time also she's scolding me..

I met with some health prob. Here pain there pain. Once, which was 2 weeks ago, the doc. said that my blood pressure is too low as i dun have balanced diet. She didn't speak to me for 6 days after finished scolding me. I've counted, 6 days.

I know why. I know. But I was angry as It's non of her business i thought.
Honestly, I hate her at that moment, but deep in my heart, I love her. If not, why did i bother to count how many days?

My anger fade away soon. After that, I tried to do what she asked me to do, eat.... However, still, I got scolded cuz I hate to follow all the time, my fault. I was angry most of the time, bad tempered, not in good mood, especially weekends, when i need to see doc. again. I do know the reason why i gt scolded but i'm just angry~

Today, I realize something.

I'm so wrong.

I'm irrational

Today, I promise to myself, treat myself nicely and recover ASAP so that she no longer worries bout me.

I wanna joke with her as usual

I want her to nag me instead of scolding me

I'm afraid that she'll stop talking to me one day, as i love her so much.

I'm sorry, mommy.

没有一个父母是不爱自己孩子!